Sometimes you have to go backwards in order to move ahead

It seems that we all go through times when we feel stuck, many times we feel that way because we are stuck!  The new job hasn't shown up, your relationship is stagnant, your house is too small or needs soooo much work it's overwhelming.

Those are the times when it's easy to lose patience and faith too, for that matter. It's frustrating to have done all the work, put in the effort and still the situation just stays the same. I've struggled with this myself and I know how easy it is to feel lost or just want to give up.

During this frustrating time, I wasn't sure what to do or which direction to turn. I knew I had to do something different so I could see different results since all of my hard work was getting me nowhere. After wrestling with this issue for what felt like a really, really long time I still had no answers. So I decided to go backward.

Now I do believe as a general rule that you can't really go back - it just doesn't work. That was then and this is now. People change, places change and grow, hopefully, you change and grow so the old form or location just doesn't fit anymore. Keeping this in mind, I decided to give it a try anyways to see what would happen. This was not a huge risk I was taking, just having a look back, a visit to try it on for size. The worst thing that could happen is that it would be disappointing, not a big deal.  

Part of the problem with the past is that that's what it is, the past, and that is exactly where it belongs, behind you. I am reminded by my Spirit Guides to remain in the present moment. The past is gone, the future has not happened yet and all we have is the now. This seems like an easy mindset to practice and it is depending on the day!  But it's a good one and worth working on. Like anything else, it does get easier with time.

So I had a look back after many years of living a very different kind of life. My visit was a lot of things. It was weird, not as great as I remembered, sort of disappointing, a bit sad and it was no longer a good fit for me. Happily, it was also wonderful, great fun and a memorable adventure.

After giving this some thought, I have come to the conclusion that I had to get this trek into my past out of the way, in order to fully move into the present, no matter what that may look like. I no longer have that nagging 'what if ' feeling and I have to tell you it feels wonderful and very freeing. It feels like I just made room in my brain, my heart, and my life for something new and exciting. I've wiped the slate clean. So come on new stuff, I am now ready:)